Perfect Love and Perfect Trust
What do these words mean to you?
When I was younger and first began my journey with the craft
I was taught by my beloved Ezzie that meant exactly what it says. You must have
absolute love and trust for your sisters in the craft, and if you do not than
you are with the wrong circle. I have
been put in this position twice now in my life. The first time I was fine with it as I was not the only one to
leave that coven, and in truth I was better for it. It was time for me to go
out on my own. The second time was recently, and it was no coven but it still
broke my heart to have to walk away.
I will not be in circle with anyone I cannot love and trust.
I have done it on occasion and I usually end up in a very bad state. A place no
one wants to be in I assure you. I do not know if I will ever have a place with
these women again, but I know I cannot have a place with the one woman who I
cannot trust. This is not a simple catty fight and silliness. I am well known
by those who have known me long to be a woman of forgiveness, and have many
friends that I have fought with on many occasion. This goes deeper than that.
I was in the presence of someone who manipulated me at my
weakest moments at a point in my life where everything had changed so much that
I was incredibly vulnerable. Someone who I thought needed my help as well, and
I often tried to do everything I could including ending up paying off a 200-dollar
ticket so her child could have medicine. I brought her food when she was low,
and stood by her when she said she needed someone there. She herself was always
at my side almost constantly as well, and if I had known that her friendship
was not genuine I would have ended it before things got so far out of hand. I
will not give any more details except she lied, and caused problems in my life
in almost every area. My romantic life, my social life, my witchy friends life,
and even the worst offense was my situation in court with my abuser which
caused problems in the court, but it was overcome for the most part.
This is someone I cannot be in Perfect Love and Perfect
Trust with. I cannot do magick's with someone who has caused this much discord
for me and why on earth would anyone mesh his or her energy with something like
that. I would certainly never advise anyone I ever taught to do so, and in fact
any one of my past students would say I have told them the opposite. Your not finding the circle you joined to be
comfortable than you get out and find one where you are. It is better to be
solitary than to try and do magick when your mental, physical, or aura is in
trouble.
Now I am not talking about public rituals, which you may not
know everyone and obviously you do not have a personal relationship with. Than
again all your shields should be well up in these situations. I myself was foolish enough to go to a
public ritual not too long ago when I was not well enough emotionally to be
there. I was not prepared and ended up in a bad way. We all make mistakes no
matter how experienced we are. Sometimes we just do not have our cloak on
straight and our pointed hat is askew.
So now all that is said and I am happy to say the Goddess
recently sent someone back my way. Someone who was once my student and now is a
full fledged witch, and also in need of reaching back out. Magick is afoot
ladies and gents, and yes the Goddess is well alive and looking after all of us
who ask of her, and also those of us who use our power where and when it should
be used.
Blessed Be in Perfect Love and Perfect Trust. What does it
mean to you? Would you do magick with those who you did not?
Oh honey. I'm sorry you went through that. I'm very glad that you were able to turn it around and good things are happening again for you. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteIt is just another lesson learned, and from it I am spring anew again as we do over and over and over!!!
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